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every single moment that passed by, she stood in silence. begin to listen to her own body rhythms, trying to pledge herself to feel better. as today is a fine, clear and calm day. nature makes her realize, get rid over a pitiful thought. move on.

Assalamualaikum, Yesterday's a disappointment. Frankly say that I am really down. It's hurt to face the music that my SPM result wasn't good. NOT any expectation. When friends of mine asked, they turned to shock. And that is the fact. Why are they surprised? "Dear, how come. You deserve better than 2 A's actually. you had struggle within the morning till night and I can't believe. You're kidding right??" That's what they said. My brother did tell me, "Alhamdulillah, what a great achievement you have got. Doesn't matter how many A's did you get, adik.. Be grateful. Be strong. Never give up. Only Allah know what is best for His servant. Just belief." Then I realized... How hard you struggle, if Allah doesn't want it to happen, then it won't. 'man jadda, wa jadda' This is the test from Allah to know how grateful am I for what I had achieved because I still have A's in my result.

Assalamualaikum, Lately, my confident level becomes worst each day.  How it happen?  I do not have the answer.  I've thoroughly tried to figure out.  So I tried to find the answer.   In the classroom, sir kept asking if there were anything that we want to ask, but there was no sound.   Then I raised my hand, "Sir, how to be confident?".  Then, he smiled.   All the stud kept silent and pay full attention.  Then he asked "do you think you are beautiful?" he pointed at me.  I didn't know what to say at that time and ended up by saying "hurmm maybe".  He says "What? you didn't like yourself? how come anak ".  I nodded.  Then he said something that I will bear in mind.  Look anak , let's  think.  If we don't accept our own, who will? If we don't think we are beautiful, then who will? It's all depends on what we think we are. Just believe in yourself... Trust me.  It's harmful to hear what others say. ...

dingin malam buat hati gusar. takut bukan kepalang. hati berdegup laju. bukan esok tapi hari kemudian. tapi otak makin ligat. resah tolong! pergi jauh buat seketika. biar berseorang asal diberi rehat. yang pasti, keputusan tetap dapat. Itu pasti. barangkali baik atau sebaliknya.. Itu kehidupan pelajar. takut sentiasa ada. tekanan datang berteman. ujian harapan sementara. keputusan itu penamat. rutin kembali berulang... Ya ALLAH, tenangkanlah hati ini, semoga kejayaan yang dikurniakan. namun jika tidak, hambaMu ini tahu Engkau tahu apa yang terbaik untukku..