sometimes . .

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sometimes,
I do feel ungrateful,

staring at others life, 

whilst mirroring my life the other way around.
why wouldn't I be so and so?

while my eyes keep watching them,
my mind piled up with quite a bundle of questions,
unsatisfied, 
what path was I currently landed 

caught me, 
feeling sad within rejoice of others?
I'm pissed looking at their bright smile 
and,
I smirk,
why everyone been so selfish,

nothing at all.
My heart was numb. 
I don't know what to feel.
stiff.


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