Celebrate new year by myself

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 ,اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

I am going to pour my thought right here right now. To start my positive new year in last 2016 was very refreshing and kept me motivated to lose my weight and to cut off my fat on my tummy. I can't describe my burning spirit to cure reflux and feel free. I suffered and survived at the same time, thrown out right after eating too much, excessively drinking water (need more to quench thirst🙄), eaten few bites of apple, honeydew (right, it is just fruit, healthy one), binged on the junk foods (why not treat your self), ice cream, chocolate bar, oily fried chicken (well, that's why it is so called-fried-chicken because we fried em. You name it. I managed to be in good shape since I lost 12kg. I know, me too, proud of myself *pat my back*

After all, I still went for a workout, jogging and do whatever it took to be fit. I left the rice out in every meal, blindly depend on protein with low carb intakes. I survived!
Circa a week before my bro's wedding, my stomach was getting worse, I can't eat proper food and continuously puking. I stopped eating chicken or any meats. Tracking my food timing and intake, and I will make sure to eat bread in each meal. Up to this point, I gained another 4kg which means I was 73kg. After quite a slow recovery process, I make up my mind and became stronger than before but it lasts for a few days when I getting back to the bad routine. Again! I gave up and don't give a shit to controlled diet, calorie intake and stopped jogging because of the weather for quite so long 😂(i do feel terrible). I lost my spirit and weighing myself up to the 77kg on the scale. THIS IS FCKING UGLY TRUTH. HATE MYSELF AND LOST WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.

(I'll continue later)

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