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I do not know what I've been thinking all day long. The memories hit me every time I am alone. Rindu Bustan, but I wanna get rid those misunderstood among the housemates. That's how things are good enough to keep in mind. I missed times when I met my dormmate maxisegar and remembered how naive I could be at that time. Be the innocent happy gal and trying hard to avoid any things that could make ppl hurt. Remember how I started a new life in a rent house with new ppl. And the most unbelievable thing happened when I started to know who I can befriend and who I can rely most on upon. I learned how great our life could be if we make friends sincerely. No talking at the back. Just simply giving advice, exchange stories and be there when they need you, make fun of each other and be with ppl who could handle you bila kau paling manja dan annoying.

#1 Sejak semalam aku susah nak makan, tapi bedal je walaupun sakit. Ulcer dalam mulut ni annoying sngat. Tetiba teringat zati. At least sebulan sekali mesti mulut dia ada ulcer. Dia susah sangat nak consume air kosong. So aku selalu bebel dia suruh minum air rindulah . #2 Minggu exam memang cartoon gals ni ada ja benda nak diskusi. Time macam nilah teringat nak share thoughts(like everyday actually), what we like, what we wanna do and etc... So esoknya 3org tu nak exam tpi aku tak. Sbbnya dorang kos lain dari aku. Aku je sesat dalam bilik tu. Plan baik punya nak kluar jalan right after their last paper. But then, i have to go home for my muet papers. Daaannnggg! That makes me have to take a risk of whatsoever afterwards bcause im home. Abah won't allowed me to go anywhere. which disappoint me even more. I need to return to Bustan. #3 Kalau dekat Bustan, time2 sepi sabtu ahad mesti simpan harapan nak jasad dan ruh ada kat kampung. Sbbnya nak keluar jalan2 senan

Assalamualaikum and lit positive vibes in your life, Let's begin my random talk and see where it will lead to. Well, there are many things happened to me eventually. For almost a year ago, my body suffers silently. It is not a big deal though because I think that I've been practising a healthy diet in a wrong way. Yeah, umm this is kind of confession. In return, I will vomit after taking meals. And as it seems to be unbalanced throughout a year, my body eager to throw out even more out of any specific foods that I able to think my body could not swallow. I started to cut off eating any sausages which I cheat sometimes, and that's how it goes. However, for not taking those sausages doesn't stop my throat from puking. the list expends in a manner that I couldn't even think. from sausages to salad, and fry eggs and also milk. the worst is at the time I drank coffee and it ultimately reacts to the entire meals that I have from the day before and it really pisse

how to measure your disaster? -a day full of blessed twisted around -you are unable to hide your feeling through smile -your head getting dizzy like its goin to explode -your heart feel hurt

kocek sengkek diisi sedikit kali sedikit bertahun lamanya. tiba2 kau berwajah nan selenga nak sekat kebebasan hati aku. kau dah kenapa? kalau kau nak diri kau dihormati orang, kau perlu memulakannya dulu. jahanam semua debat kau dengan wajah nan selenga, kau tak paham satu apa weh- jangan setarakan wajah kau dengan tahap pemikiran kau. mana pergi jati diri yang kau bangga2 kan? mana hilang fikiran luar kotak kau? mengkritik terus menerus tapi kau tak sedar kau yang paksa aku bina benteng tinggi2 untuk halang diri aku ni memahami kau pergilah kau jauh2 aku tak suka hipokrasi dan aku tunjuk terus menerus aku tak suka kau sekat daya aku berfikir, dan cara aku memuaskan diri sendiri dengan tahap kepuasan yang kau sukar mengerti. maaf, tolong kamu undur. back off!!

"benda yang sudah berlaku tak akan lenyap, sebab itu bakal mendap dalam ingatan."  I have my very own reason. Yeah! When we are desperately wanted to forget about every single thing in details that turned our life upside down. have you ever experienced that? Considered yes. with no hesitation, you know that if you are going to throw away your unpleasant memories will diminish anyone who is involved in that particular situation at that moment. and even your favourite person. the question is, do you dare? this is the real important things that have to be counted. so I will definitely say NO! the things is I just couldn't lose them, as they are the person who is part of my life. so even I like it or not, I have to face the music which is considered as a burden on my shoulder. know what? This is life. a kinda real one, tough and where you can find an unexpected tragedy happened in your real life that you merely never think of it.  as for me, everything h

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ♡ Fasa baru- Aku paksa diri Biar mudah bergaul Jadi aku mula dengan hari ini. Walau malas Aku sisih cepat cepat. Sebab Aku dah mula pegang kata kata- " Manusia bijak tahu bila nak berubah " Walau ni ayat yang aku cedok dari dalam novel, Aku tak kesah. Yang penting, Ada pangkalnya

pekat langit malam, gugusan bintang kabur. dah malam kan. norma manusia berkeliaran. Ah lantaklah! kaki aku lekat, kukuh menapak. berbumbungkan siling putih, bangunan usang. berpenduduk sejantina.

semua tampak sama. padahal lain. apa perlu aku buat kalau hati dah keras? dulu aku ingat air. lama kelamaan dah makin lain. baik aku mengelat.  biar jauh, biarlah aku terasing. asal aku tahu, apa aku mahu . walau tersentap di hujung pangkal laluan, aku tetap akan cari haluan. mungkin. ada baiknya aku terlewat . 

Kau seret aku dengan sopan, Soalan demi soalan kau aju. Hinggakan aku tertipu terjebak dalam permainan, Membuka bicara membawa debat. Bicara kau sinis, Mengundang pertelingkahan. Kau tak pandang atas bawah, Kau tak gusar menyusun ayat. Kukuh teguh diri kau aku akur, Tapi jujur, Tutur kata yang kau sembur, Tiada asas, lebur. Baik kau diam kalau benci. Sebab kadang, Kau yang menjatuhkan persepsi tinggi orang, Menampakkan kau itu bawah. Mencerminkan kau itu manusia yang bagaimana. ***terima kasih kepada orang yang sebegini sebab kau membawa aku untuk lebih faham. Bahawa manusia itu banyak sangat perasaan cemburu.  Kadang membuatkan manusia itu sendiri tidak bersyukur dengan apa yang dia miliki. Dan kau menyedarkan aku bahawa, walau apa sekalipun yang kita lakukan, baik mahupun buruk. dengan niat BENAR ataupun salah.  Tetapkan ada orang yang memBENCI dari belakang. Dah ! Jangan nak sangat puaskan hati orang. sebab kita hidup ada tujuannya.  Cari motif utama s