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اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته، Hi all.  I have been on hiatus mood for a few months and I gathered varies of experiences to be shared in this new post. Well, maybe not all at once! I underwent an internship for a couple of months after deciding to isolate myself from my coursemate back in college. Therefore, I moved into my brother's house with hesitation. I did receive an invitation to work in an established company as a content writer and it is located somewhere in PJ and near to my second brother's house. However, at the same time, I somehow made a decision to work with the startup financial company in Cyberjaya.  Guess what. I rejected the offer from this established company just because I thought, I might be given tasks as an assistant rather than actually do a job as a content writer. I asked bits of favour from my siblings, best friends and myself. So finally decided to stay with my third brother in Putrajaya and commuted to work in Cyberjaya. 

اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته، HALO, I have great escapism with my favourite people since my diploma time. This is our second trip to Penang. It just happened to be in this place! We don't really have a proper plan or things to do at all. 16th Jan   My father sent me off to McD. I went into the car. Z drove and II was next to her. Since it was their semester break, I occasionally sat at the passenger seat with comforter, pillow, hung clothes and etcetera where I found myself put my backpack on the floor. We're heading to Sg. Petani. I got myself a cup of hot mocha. It wasn't my real pleasure to have chocolate but its better than nothing. 17th Jan We leave home around 10 a.m. after having a plate of nasi lemak each. Yeah well, I insist to follow or eat anything edible. So, we dropped by at Jeruk Pak Ali. I bought myself a small container full of samprit (my all time fave Malay cookies). We approached Penang Bridge around 11.30. Since we were o

 ,اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته I am going to pour my thought right here right now. To start my positive new year in last 2016 was very refreshing and kept me motivated to lose my weight and to cut off my fat on my tummy. I can't describe my burning spirit to cure reflux and feel free. I suffered and survived at the same time, thrown out right after eating too much, excessively drinking water (need more to quench thirst🙄), eaten few bites of apple, honeydew (right, it is just fruit, healthy one), binged on the junk foods (why not treat your self), ice cream, chocolate bar, oily fried chicken (well, that's why it is so called-fried-chicken because we fried em. You name it. I managed to be in good shape since I lost 12kg. I know, me too, proud of myself *pat my back* After all, I still went for a workout, jogging and do whatever it took to be fit. I left the rice out in every meal, blindly depend on protein with low carb intakes. I survived! Circa a week before my bro

I do not know what I've been thinking all day long. The memories hit me every time I am alone. Rindu Bustan, but I wanna get rid those misunderstood among the housemates. That's how things are good enough to keep in mind. I missed times when I met my dormmate maxisegar and remembered how naive I could be at that time. Be the innocent happy gal and trying hard to avoid any things that could make ppl hurt. Remember how I started a new life in a rent house with new ppl. And the most unbelievable thing happened when I started to know who I can befriend and who I can rely most on upon. I learned how great our life could be if we make friends sincerely. No talking at the back. Just simply giving advice, exchange stories and be there when they need you, make fun of each other and be with ppl who could handle you bila kau paling manja dan annoying.

#1 Sejak semalam aku susah nak makan, tapi bedal je walaupun sakit. Ulcer dalam mulut ni annoying sngat. Tetiba teringat zati. At least sebulan sekali mesti mulut dia ada ulcer. Dia susah sangat nak consume air kosong. So aku selalu bebel dia suruh minum air rindulah . #2 Minggu exam memang cartoon gals ni ada ja benda nak diskusi. Time macam nilah teringat nak share thoughts(like everyday actually), what we like, what we wanna do and etc... So esoknya 3org tu nak exam tpi aku tak. Sbbnya dorang kos lain dari aku. Aku je sesat dalam bilik tu. Plan baik punya nak kluar jalan right after their last paper. But then, i have to go home for my muet papers. Daaannnggg! That makes me have to take a risk of whatsoever afterwards bcause im home. Abah won't allowed me to go anywhere. which disappoint me even more. I need to return to Bustan. #3 Kalau dekat Bustan, time2 sepi sabtu ahad mesti simpan harapan nak jasad dan ruh ada kat kampung. Sbbnya nak keluar jalan2 senan

Assalamualaikum and lit positive vibes in your life, Let's begin my random talk and see where it will lead to. Well, there are many things happened to me eventually. For almost a year ago, my body suffers silently. It is not a big deal though because I think that I've been practising a healthy diet in a wrong way. Yeah, umm this is kind of confession. In return, I will vomit after taking meals. And as it seems to be unbalanced throughout a year, my body eager to throw out even more out of any specific foods that I able to think my body could not swallow. I started to cut off eating any sausages which I cheat sometimes, and that's how it goes. However, for not taking those sausages doesn't stop my throat from puking. the list expends in a manner that I couldn't even think. from sausages to salad, and fry eggs and also milk. the worst is at the time I drank coffee and it ultimately reacts to the entire meals that I have from the day before and it really pisse

how to measure your disaster? -a day full of blessed twisted around -you are unable to hide your feeling through smile -your head getting dizzy like its goin to explode -your heart feel hurt

kocek sengkek diisi sedikit kali sedikit bertahun lamanya. tiba2 kau berwajah nan selenga nak sekat kebebasan hati aku. kau dah kenapa? kalau kau nak diri kau dihormati orang, kau perlu memulakannya dulu. jahanam semua debat kau dengan wajah nan selenga, kau tak paham satu apa weh- jangan setarakan wajah kau dengan tahap pemikiran kau. mana pergi jati diri yang kau bangga2 kan? mana hilang fikiran luar kotak kau? mengkritik terus menerus tapi kau tak sedar kau yang paksa aku bina benteng tinggi2 untuk halang diri aku ni memahami kau pergilah kau jauh2 aku tak suka hipokrasi dan aku tunjuk terus menerus aku tak suka kau sekat daya aku berfikir, dan cara aku memuaskan diri sendiri dengan tahap kepuasan yang kau sukar mengerti. maaf, tolong kamu undur. back off!!

"benda yang sudah berlaku tak akan lenyap, sebab itu bakal mendap dalam ingatan."  I have my very own reason. Yeah! When we are desperately wanted to forget about every single thing in details that turned our life upside down. have you ever experienced that? Considered yes. with no hesitation, you know that if you are going to throw away your unpleasant memories will diminish anyone who is involved in that particular situation at that moment. and even your favourite person. the question is, do you dare? this is the real important things that have to be counted. so I will definitely say NO! the things is I just couldn't lose them, as they are the person who is part of my life. so even I like it or not, I have to face the music which is considered as a burden on my shoulder. know what? This is life. a kinda real one, tough and where you can find an unexpected tragedy happened in your real life that you merely never think of it.  as for me, everything h

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ♡ Fasa baru- Aku paksa diri Biar mudah bergaul Jadi aku mula dengan hari ini. Walau malas Aku sisih cepat cepat. Sebab Aku dah mula pegang kata kata- " Manusia bijak tahu bila nak berubah " Walau ni ayat yang aku cedok dari dalam novel, Aku tak kesah. Yang penting, Ada pangkalnya