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Hey. Fri, 27th March I am writing this to recall what I have been going through up until this moment. Ones said, cherish every moment and every person in your life, and this hit me every now and then.  Somehow, I may not feel it at the moment that I was enduring myself to try my very best to fit into the situation and go with the flow. Nevertheless, I was able to go through my hard times and the old days passed by and I pondered about yesterday. I spent a year and months before decided to brace myself one more time and give it another shot to divert my experience to other places. The fact that I still couldn't be able to challenge myself to go into the field that I accredited with, I am so upset with myself. I have no courage yet, to take another shot to fly high. Be mindful that Allah knows best!   Perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you & perhaps you love a thing & it is bad for you (al baqarah 2:216) I figu...

Hey. Sat, 27th April Dear you who found yourself lost in the middle of the crowd. It is a super plain Saturday for me and the house. I am home alone and been having a deep thought in which I hate the most.it makes me question myself of what kind of life that I have been living up until this moment. All in all, I can say that I am embracing the empty spaces. Never a black, white or even colourful shades. None of them.  So tell me again, what life is all about. Is it about people that need to be involved to make it a living proof or the emotion of feeling contented or the things that you could helplessly have with struggle? I am totally drowning. Further away from the edges and everything seem shady and blurry.  In this year, every single thing will be shared on the net. And every single time I slide on my ig, I never see my life is real anymore and never feel better ever since. Am I the only worthless human in this world? Why do I feel suffocated and couldn't cat...

Hey. It's only been day two of school break and we're dealing with a few issues one after another which doesn't come in handy. Way out of control for the whole day, I presumed that was the accurate way to describe the whole incident. Well, I just started my new job not long ago and already been acknowledged about a student who needs special attention and extra care. Not so close to telling that the student is having dyslexia or autism. I would say this student is showing symptoms of ADHD (Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder). ADHD is  a neurological condition defined by a consistent pattern of inattention and/or hyperactive impulsivity that interferes with daily functioning in at least two settings.  Obviously, I am no expert in this field but based on my reading and having a month spent with this student, I am definitely will be giving the same answer.  Well, I am proud to say that my student is able to understand the instructions given just like ...

اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته، Hi all.  I have been on hiatus mood for a few months and I gathered varies of experiences to be shared in this new post. Well, maybe not all at once! I underwent an internship for a couple of months after deciding to isolate myself from my coursemate back in college. Therefore, I moved into my brother's house with hesitation. I did receive an invitation to work in an established company as a content writer and it is located somewhere in PJ and near to my second brother's house. However, at the same time, I somehow made a decision to work with the startup financial company in Cyberjaya.  Guess what. I rejected the offer from this established company just because I thought, I might be given tasks as an assistant rather than actually do a job as a content writer. I asked bits of favour from my siblings, best friends and myself. So finally decided to stay with my third brother in Putrajaya and commuted to work in Cyberjaya....

اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته، HALO, I have great escapism with my favourite people since my diploma time. This is our second trip to Penang. It just happened to be in this place! We don't really have a proper plan or things to do at all. 16th Jan   My father sent me off to McD. I went into the car. Z drove and II was next to her. Since it was their semester break, I occasionally sat at the passenger seat with comforter, pillow, hung clothes and etcetera where I found myself put my backpack on the floor. We're heading to Sg. Petani. I got myself a cup of hot mocha. It wasn't my real pleasure to have chocolate but its better than nothing. 17th Jan We leave home around 10 a.m. after having a plate of nasi lemak each. Yeah well, I insist to follow or eat anything edible. So, we dropped by at Jeruk Pak Ali. I bought myself a small container full of samprit (my all time fave Malay cookies). We approached Penang Bridge around 11.30. Since we...

 ,اسلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته I am going to pour my thought right here right now. To start my positive new year in last 2016 was very refreshing and kept me motivated to lose my weight and to cut off my fat on my tummy. I can't describe my burning spirit to cure reflux and feel free. I suffered and survived at the same time, thrown out right after eating too much, excessively drinking water (need more to quench thirst🙄), eaten few bites of apple, honeydew (right, it is just fruit, healthy one), binged on the junk foods (why not treat your self), ice cream, chocolate bar, oily fried chicken (well, that's why it is so called-fried-chicken because we fried em. You name it. I managed to be in good shape since I lost 12kg. I know, me too, proud of myself *pat my back* After all, I still went for a workout, jogging and do whatever it took to be fit. I left the rice out in every meal, blindly depend on protein with low carb intakes. I survived! Circa a week before my bro...

I do not know what I've been thinking all day long. The memories hit me every time I am alone. Rindu Bustan, but I wanna get rid those misunderstood among the housemates. That's how things are good enough to keep in mind. I missed times when I met my dormmate maxisegar and remembered how naive I could be at that time. Be the innocent happy gal and trying hard to avoid any things that could make ppl hurt. Remember how I started a new life in a rent house with new ppl. And the most unbelievable thing happened when I started to know who I can befriend and who I can rely most on upon. I learned how great our life could be if we make friends sincerely. No talking at the back. Just simply giving advice, exchange stories and be there when they need you, make fun of each other and be with ppl who could handle you bila kau paling manja dan annoying.

#1 Sejak semalam aku susah nak makan, tapi bedal je walaupun sakit. Ulcer dalam mulut ni annoying sngat. Tetiba teringat zati. At least sebulan sekali mesti mulut dia ada ulcer. Dia susah sangat nak consume air kosong. So aku selalu bebel dia suruh minum air rindulah . #2 Minggu exam memang cartoon gals ni ada ja benda nak diskusi. Time macam nilah teringat nak share thoughts(like everyday actually), what we like, what we wanna do and etc... So esoknya 3org tu nak exam tpi aku tak. Sbbnya dorang kos lain dari aku. Aku je sesat dalam bilik tu. Plan baik punya nak kluar jalan right after their last paper. But then, i have to go home for my muet papers. Daaannnggg! That makes me have to take a risk of whatsoever afterwards bcause im home. Abah won't allowed me to go anywhere. which disappoint me even more. I need to return to Bustan. #3 Kalau dekat Bustan, time2 sepi sabtu ahad mesti simpan harapan nak jasad dan ruh ada kat kampung. Sbbnya nak keluar jalan2 senan...

Assalamualaikum and lit positive vibes in your life, Let's begin my random talk and see where it will lead to. Well, there are many things happened to me eventually. For almost a year ago, my body suffers silently. It is not a big deal though because I think that I've been practising a healthy diet in a wrong way. Yeah, umm this is kind of confession. In return, I will vomit after taking meals. And as it seems to be unbalanced throughout a year, my body eager to throw out even more out of any specific foods that I able to think my body could not swallow. I started to cut off eating any sausages which I cheat sometimes, and that's how it goes. However, for not taking those sausages doesn't stop my throat from puking. the list expends in a manner that I couldn't even think. from sausages to salad, and fry eggs and also milk. the worst is at the time I drank coffee and it ultimately reacts to the entire meals that I have from the day before and it really pisse...

how to measure your disaster? -a day full of blessed twisted around -you are unable to hide your feeling through smile -your head getting dizzy like its goin to explode -your heart feel hurt